The Caffeinated Traveler

Christmas in Sweden

2012-01-12T14:57:00.000-06:00

I had the great privileged to celebrate Christmas in Sweden with family and friends. It was a much needed break from "Shelter" life and a long past due visit to my favourite place in the world.

From the 21st to the 26th I stayed with my friends the Ruthers and the Olofsgårds in Umeå & Skellefteå (northern Sweden). I can't even express how fun it was to spend time with families... laughing, cooking, eating, taking long walks, practicing my Swedish...

Recent Happenings.

2011-11-30T14:36:00.000-06:00

Wow... I can't believe it's almost December! Time is flying by...

A very common thing to hear around the community house is "Shelter life has it's own time zone", and it's true. Our days are so packed full of working in the hostels, small groups, MTP (ministry training program), Bible studies, church and community activities that the days seem eternal! But then our weeks seem to fly by... I've been here in Amsterdam for 4 months now - and it feels like it's been just 4 weeks. I have learned so much, met so many amazing people, heard incredible stories. It sound so glamorous and romantic when I can say: I live in Amsterdam, in a community house with missionaries from all over the world and work in a youth hostel sharing the love and message of Christ with backpackers... and some days it is. But it's not easy. It's exhausting physically, mentally and spiritually. I have been challenged in so many ways, but at the end of the day, God is good, He is the reason I am here - and I'm more in love with Him than ever!

I was so blessed 2 weeks ago to have my mother come for a visit. It was a very short trip (only 6 days) but it was an amazing time of catching up, showing her the work I am doing, and allowing her to be a part of the community for a few days.

We are now in a "low" season in the community, where we have a shortage of staff... This makes covering the shifts at the hostel difficult (meaning we all get multiple shifts a day), but low season also gives us an amazing time to grow closer as bothers & sisters.

Last week we hosted Thanksgiving for all of the staff, managers, and paid staff at the hostels... about 30 in total. It was incredible to see the community gather together to pull off such a huge feast! All day Thursday we cooked, decorated and had spontaneous dance-parties to Justin Bieber's Christmas album (I definitely wasn't the DJ for the day). After feasting we has a time of prayer and worship as a community, and then we all piled together in the living room to watch Miracle on 34th Street.
Thanksgiving has always been one of my favourite holidays - but this year was the best of them all.

The beautiful Farah

Liza

Cooking up a storm...

A work in progress...

I am so beyond blessed to be a part of this community and ministry.

Hopefully from this point on I will do better at updating you (no promises though!).
I hope you all have a blessed holiday season!
Xoxo
Stina

P.S. Here is a random (and blury), yet recent photo of me and my roommate Kirsten. :o)

2011-10-22T12:46:00.000-05:00

Hey everyone!
I am so sorry for neglecting you all... I wish I could spend more time posting here... But in all honesty, life is moving so fast - I don't even know how to write down what's going on.

All I can say is, God is SO good!

I shall continue to try to post photos on this blog, but if you really do want to know what's happening in my life and in the ministry that I am a part of, I would love it if you either emailed me, wrote me a letter, or messaged me on Facebook. I am so much better at writing directly to a person, than attempting to write everything for the general public.
PLEASE write me! I'd love to hear from all of you!
Blessings,

kristinallund@hotmail.com

Amsterdam has stolen my heart...

2011-08-31T15:20:00.000-05:00

The passionate culture.

The vibrant colours

The charming streets.

I wake up to the sound of the local cathedrals bells chiming.

I wake up to the smell of fresh-baked bread and coffee (with the occasional stench of marijuana).

I bike to work in the early-morning along the dewy canals... Just myself and a few people walking their dogs on the cobblestone streets.

I live with history-makers... And I work alongside these history-makers.

By providing Shelter for refugees, travellers & families from around the world - I'm living out the basics of Christianity in the everyday.

I get to share the Gospel with everyone I come in contact with. Whether it be with words, or actions. I've had the opportunity to make people's day with just a smile... a hug... a word of encouragement.

I am beyond blessed to be here.

Amsterdam - Update 1

2011-08-26T08:35:00.000-05:00

I do apologize for my lack of updates - life has been a bit crazy over the past few weeks.

So, I arrived in Amsterdam on 1 August. My connections all went smoothly and I met one of my 'house parents' at Central Station. The home I am living in is about a 15 minute walk from Central Station along numerous canals.
I am living in a house in the Jordaan district along with 35 others who are working at the ministry as well. I am sharing a room with a lovely gal named Grace - who is from Idaho and working here for a year.
Life in the ministry is amazing. As soon as I stepped foot in the hostel - I felt at home. I am primarily working as a receptionist at the hostel, and occasionally working in the cafe - preparing and serving food to guests.
Everything I have experienced thus far is so overwhelming... I'm not sure how I can put into words all that I've experienced, and all God is teaching me.

Thank you so much for your prayers over the past few weeks... I am so glad to let you all know that - my residency for the Netherlands was approved! I have 2 meetings over the past few weeks at the City Hall to register with the government - so, continue to pray that I have all of the documentation that is needed for these meetings.
You can also be praying for my health... I have been under the weather over the past few weeks. Partially due to a cold [which has been passed around to everyone in the house!], but I am unsure as to the other cause of my feeling ill. Please be praying for healing, and wisdom as to when I should seek medical attention.

Thanks again for all of your love and support. I am really gonna try my best to keep you updated with what's going on in my life.

Love and blessings to you all!
Kristina

2011-08-10T09:49:00.000-05:00

More photos & updates to come!
But in the meantime - here are a few photos from around my neighbourhood to "wet your appetite"

Home sweet home

House boats

Record shop down the street

The Day Has Come...

2011-07-31T07:34:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm OFF!!
These past few weeks have been a whirlwind of packing and saying goodbyes.
I cannot believe that today is finally here... after 2 commissioning services at church this morning I shall be airport bound.

I am going to be working at The Shelter youth hostels alongside other young people who are passionate about missions. My job will consist of the day-to-day running of the hostel Jordan (ie cooking, cleaning, reception etc) and leading nightly Bible studies at the hostel for the lodgers.
Whilst working at the hostel I will be living in a community house with everyone I work with, that is half-way between the 2 hostels.

I am beyond excited for this new adventure... but I am still in desperate need of your prayers.

More updates to come - but in the meantime, I'd like to leave you with a picture of the general area I will be living in.
Love,
Stina

Oh yeah...

2011-07-14T14:33:00.000-05:00

I forgot to mention...

I'm moving to Amsterdam!!!!!

Anticipation...

2011-06-29T18:08:00.000-05:00

I am trying to contain my excitement...

The Lord is SO good!!

After being home from Australia for a year & a half - I hope that my next adventure is just around the corner.

Hillsong has been the highlight of my life thus far... It completely changed me. I was challenged & transformed, both by people, and experiences. But I didn't realize that my time back in the US these past 18 months would be even more challenging. I never questioned God's goodness, or his plan for my life... I was just wondering when my "layover" would be over. That's all my time here was. Just a "layover".

I've spent so many sleepless nights questioning my desires for leaving... wondering whether I was confusing God's will with my own... but then I got IT!

I was suppose to be here.

And I finally understand WHY I was put here. My dear friends and I have been in the middle of a majour spiritual battle this past year. Hearts have been broken, life's have been crushed, friendship have been torn apart, and every single one of us has been challenged in our faith. Yet we stayed strong, and clung to Jesus.
People could have strayed from the Lord, people could have let the pain overtake them, people could have let anger consume their lives... but God was gracious.
So, here we are in the aftermath of intense spiritual darkness... stronger.

I love the Lord's promise in Hebrews 13:5:

"I will never fail you
I will never abandon you"

And now here I am... Entering what could possibly be my next life-changing adventure - and I'm at peace about it. Yes, I have my moments of being anxious - especially considering the spiritual darkness that I will voluntarily be waltzing into. But I know if this works - it's God's will. And if it doesn't work - it's God's will.

I hope to be able to share with you all what this adventure is SOON!
And - given that this will be an adventure (hint: a passport & visa is required!), I shall be updating this blog more often with pictures, stories and, yes, coffee shop adventures.

Desperately missing...

2011-02-09T17:55:00.000-06:00

.... Sweden at this moment.
I realize that I have not updated this little blog for WAAY too long... I'm thinking of changing that...

For those of you who did not know - I had applied for a job in Stockholm that would've started at the end of this month... I'd gone through interviews and references... it was down to me and one other applicant, and they decided to go with the other applicant who lived closer to the family.
The job was a live in nanny position IN Stockholm... only 20 minutes from Hillsong Stockholm, 15 minutes from friends, and 30 minutes from family.
I've been struggling with trying to figure out what God's got planned for this next step of my life... I feel like I'm treading water.
I'm sick and tired of questioning God's will for my life, but I'm also sick and tired of waiting.
Its not like I'm just sitting here waiting for a giant sign from heaven... a dream job to fall into my lap - I'm actively applying for jobs, and pursuing my dreams - but I feel like I'm at a stand still.

What's next God??
I trust and believe that He has my next step in mind and ready for me... but it's hard to wait patiently.

Well, here is a favourite photo to leave you with...
I'll be back someday soon... Hopefully I'll be able to fit a trip in later this year. :o)

Xoxo
- Stina

Meet Mr. Crosely

2010-08-05T19:54:00.000-05:00

So, I'm trying to think up brilliant things I can post on this blog...
Any suggestions?
I figured this would be a fun place to start - meet the newest member of my family: Mr. Crosley.

Mr. Crosley has spent many a night making me swoon to Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin & Barry Manilow... He has makes me sigh in contentment as Rosemary Clooney, Etta James & Barbara Streisand lull me to sleep with their smooth, sensual vocals... He makes me laugh as Abba, Captain & Tennille & The Beach Boys take me back in time...
Yes - Mr. Crosley you have my heart.

Summertime in Duluth

2010-08-05T16:39:00.001-05:00

Dreary Kalispell

2010-08-05T16:29:00.001-05:00

Yellowstone National Park

2010-08-05T16:24:00.000-05:00

Colorado Beauty

2010-08-05T16:17:00.000-05:00

So long...

2010-08-05T16:07:00.001-05:00

Wow, I have done a really good job at neglecting this poor blog - I do apologize! I don't really have any good excuses either... I think I was just in need of a break. but now that I'm back I really will try to post consistently!

Here is a little update on my life:
I am still jobless. I have had a couple interviews over the past few weeks & I'm hoping that one of those pan out... but so many of you know that job hunting is discouraging, disappointing & more work than an actual job!!
In June I chaperoned a trip for the FBC Sr. High to Estes Park Colorado for a week which was really incredible! Quite tiring - but amazing to experience God's beautiful creation with some of the most sweet-hearted kids I know.

After Estes Park the family & myself drove to Yellowstone National Park where we stayed for a couple of days and decided to take the northern route home through Montana so that we would be able to stop & visit a friend in Kalispell. It was a fantastic time of family bonding.

After I got back from holiday God knew that I was in desperate need of friends here in Cambridge... the past few months had been torture - and I honestly have no idea what would've happened to me if these lovely people hadn't come into my life. Out of this new group of friends a Bible study/prayer group has formed - which has been so good because I haven't had anything like this in so long.

My dear friend Imogen came to visit from Sydney for 2 weeks - and it was SO good to see her again! We took quite a few mini road trips, spent lots of time in coffee shops & giving her an 'American' experience that she would never forget! (Love you darling girl!!)

I wish I could say my life has been just peachy - but that would be lying... But because of my experiences this summer, now more than ever I know that God is in control. I am constantly reminded of his great love & mercy... I am so anxious to see what the future has in store!

Love you all,
Stina
(Oh - and I promise I'm not going to neglect you again!!)

He Lives!

2010-04-03T15:48:00.000-05:00

"Let hope rise
And darkness tremble in Your HOLY light
That every eye will see
Jesus our GOD
Great & might to be saved!"

May this Easter be a blessing & a great opportunity for you to remember the greatness of our glorious Saviour!

And the fact that through Jesus - death & darkness was conquered forever.

Waiting...

2010-02-17T12:07:00.001-06:00

So... over the past few weeks I have really been struggling with doubt as to what God's plan is for my life. I know without a doubt that I have been put here in Minnesota for such a time as this... but it can be incredibly discouraging. I've been here for just over 2 months now & I'm still looking for a job. Its not like I haven't been looking... I've probably applied to over 20 places... I've been pursuing them... But nothings happening... I know that God has it all under control & that his plans for me are grand. But patience & perseverance is so difficult for me.
I guess all I can do right now is hold on to this truth:

God has now revealed to us his mysterious plan regarding Christ, a plan to fulfill his own good pleasure. And this is the plan: At the right time he will bring everything together under the authority of Christ—everything in heaven and on earth. Furthermore, because we are united with Christ, we have received an inheritance from God,for he chose us in advance, and he makes everything work out according to his plan. ~Ephesians 1:9-11

I do know that I won't spend the rest of my life here in farmland... I love it dearly - but my soul longs to travel... But right now - I'm here.
All of your prayers would be greatly appreciated... Your friendship & love means the world to me...
Xoxo

I Don't Know What To Say...

2010-02-02T20:16:00.001-06:00

My heart hurts... It aches when I see people in pain...

I absolutely hate the way the Enemy lies & manipulates.

Sometimes it feels so out of control...

But I know the Lord has put me here for such a time as this...

Even though I may not have all of the right words to say.

I can be there.

Be a listening ear.

A shoulder to cry on.

Pray...& pray...& pray...

Help me Father God... Help me stay strong...

And be You to the lost & the hurting...

Song of The Week - Episode 6

2010-01-13T19:51:00.005-06:00

This is my first Song of the Week of 2010! Sorry about the delay getting this up... I choose a song for this week written by the lovely Brooke (Fraser) Ligertwood. This is a song off the Hillsong United album: TEAR DOWN THE WALLS [a_cross//the_EARTH]. This has to be one of my all time favourite Hillsong tunes... which is crazy because I love all of the music. Plus I had the great honour to be apart of this particular album recording.

I hope you fully enjoy this...

Love always,

Soon

Soon and very soon my King is coming

Robed in righteousness and crowned with love

When I see Him I shall be made like Him

Soon and very soon

I'll be going to the place He has prepared for me

There my sin erased my shame forgotten

Soon and very soon

I will be with the one I love

With unveiled face I'll see Him

There my soul will be satisfied

Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon see the procession

The angels and the elders round the throne

At His feet I lay my crowns my worship

Soon and very soon

I will be with the one I love

With unveiled face I'll see Him

There my soul will be satisfied

Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him my heart knows Him well

Jesus Christ the lamb the Lord of heaven

I will be with the one I love

With unveiled face I'll see Him

There my soul will be satisfied

Soon and very soon

hillsongmusic.com

myspace.com/hillsongunited

A Lovely Winters Day...

2010-01-13T17:28:00.000-06:00

...Hello 2010...

2010-01-13T13:08:00.001-06:00

Wow... 2010... I can't believe its here...

So, my last blog entry was written from a cafe in beautiful (warm) Australia... Now I am writing to you from a coffee shop in middle of snow covered, but equally beautiful Minnesota..

I've been back state-side for a month now. I've had an amazing time spending the Christmas season with my family & friends. I was very low-keyed - but that's the way I like to spend the holidays. I did enjoy many a night sitting in front of the fireplace drinking coffee & spiced cider watching my favourite Christmas movies. Christmas Day consisted of sleeping in, snowball fights, making snowmen, lots of good(bad) food, & backrubs.

New Years was a tad different that usual... On the 31st I had a wedding rehearsal & groom's dinner for my cousin & his fiancee who got married on New Years Day. It was loads of fun, but the really different thing about those 2 days was the fact that I had just had my wisdom teeth out! Yup... I played in a wedding with chipmunk cheeks...

So, what did you do for Christmas & New Years?

I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas...

2009-12-08T19:44:00.000-06:00

So... Here I am sitting in a local coffee shop, listening to the Rat Pack Christmas... Wrapped up in an oversized cardigan... Blissful right? Except I happen to be in Sydney Australia FREEZING in the air-conditioning, because it's 90 degrees outside...

Oh, how I am looking forward to the snow...

Icicles... Snowball fights...

Sitting next to the fireplace with a cup of spiced cider...

Candlelit evenings at home in front of the Christmas tree playing games with the family...

Back rubs while watching my all time favourite movie White Christmas...

Mhmm yes...

Soon... very soon...

Song of the Week - Episode 5

2009-11-23T01:08:00.004-06:00

Welcome to this week's Song of the Week! This is a song where you need to listen closely to the music... It is a scrumptious treat to any ear, musically trained, or just passionate about good music!

An Envoy to The Open Fields
All manner of malady come to be seen
All manner of malady come to be seen
Why do you call me at the door?
You don't know me
Why do you?
Why do you call me all the time?
You don't know me

In the corners of eyes
I'll stretch the sky in blue
And I'm thinking you're made for me
And I'm thinking of things you said

Hey now! No using me
Hey now! Can you see them?
No use in me
When all you want is
And when you go I stay
There are no complications
And when you go I stay
The blood is on moirre hands today

Why do you call me at the door?
You don't know me
Why do you?
Why do you call me all the time?
You don't know me
Assigned to ascertain their find
For I believe these fields divide
The other world
We timeless horse employ, envoy
How do you know?
Where did you go?
Solar, I can't see anything
Collide with me

In the corners of your eyes
I'll stretch the sky in blue
And I'm thinking we knew no better
And I'm thinking
We're dying

(c) Mew 2005
mewsite.com
myspace.com/mew

Lets Be The Change...

2009-11-20T01:35:00.002-06:00

So... I know that I have been pumping the iHeart film via Facebook & Twitter for the past few weeks/months... but yesterday I was able to see the film first hand... and all I can say is: wow.
The iHeart Revolution was something that was birthed in Joel Houston and the rest of the United team 3+ years ago... And it was absolutely thrilling to see it completed AND be a part of this historic moment.

iHeart is not for one second about Hillsong United. But, it is all about humanity & injustice. The film was so eye opening to the human condition worldwide, and the fact that we [the church] don't do nearly enough to help break down the walls of injustice.

There were so many incredible things that I took away from this film... But I think the core message & the main theme throughout the movie was just one little word. A word that we tend to throw around so flippantly...

Love

We as the Church are called to take care of those in need...

"Anyone who sets himself up as "religious" by talking a good game is self-deceived. This kind of religion is hot air and only hot air. Real religion, the kind that passes muster before God the Father, is this: Reach out to the homeless and loveless in their plight, and guard against corruption from the godless world." - James 1:26 (MSG)

I think to often we complicate Christianity, and what the church is mean to be/do.
I mean - look at Jesus and his ministry. We could just blow him off as a great man, an amazing prophet, or... a lunatic.

"This man we are talking about [Jesus] was (and is) just what He said or else a lunatic, or something worse. Now it seems to me obvious that He was neither a lunatic nor a fiend: and consequently, however strange or terrifying or unlikely it may seem, I have to accept the view that He was and is God. God has landed on this enemy-occupied world in human form." - CS Lewis (Mere Christianity)

But seriously... His ministry was like NOTHING this world has ever seen or experienced - ever!! His ministry was about loving the loveless... His ministry was about breaking down walls of injustice. So, shouldn't we do the same?

I must confess - that while sitting in the cinema surrounded by the church, I couldn't help but shed a tear or two (or 500)... This church has decided to rally together, and do something about injustice. So, now I ask you - are you ready to make a difference? Are you ready to get out of your comfort zone, and do something for the Kingdom? Are you prepared to break down the walls of injustice?

Be the change...

Make a difference...

Here are a few places to start:

i-heart.org

thea21campaign.org

compassion.com

Be blessed my dear friends,

Kristina

A reflection on the messy & treasured...

2009-11-15T05:26:00.006-06:00

Sometimes my flesh just screams out... longing to rebel, and wander away from the one true & sure thing/person out there... Jesus

After I've tried to do things all on my own - my heart just aches, because deep down... written in my very inmost being - I know without a doubt, that I belong [completely] to the creator of the Heavens & the Earth...
I am the daughter of the Artist who painted the daisies in a lush green meadow... the Sculptor who formed the magnificent mountains & filled the vast seas... the Creator of every single living creature including me.
But the thing that really gets me is, that even though this amazing God created everything, he loves & cherishes - Me

Lowly little me... the one who is hopelessly in love with Frank Sinatra & chocolate...

the one who has issues asking for help...

the one, who wishes from the bottom of her heart, that she had been able to grow up with a dad...

and the one who, no matter how many times tried - still can't whistle...

But... I am also the one who, when given the chance, left everything & everyone she held dear, and move to the other side of the world. All because of one little word... one little desire given to her 5 years ago...

I'm the person who, even though I didn't have a dad, made the most of it, and through a terribly difficult childhood... I pushed through, and became a better person because of it.

See, I'm longing to trust, and love God more & more everyday... He's the reason I'm alive...

God is great... I am so far from coming close to all He is... But I've dedicated my life to chasing after him & making his Kingdom known...

Song of the Week - Episode 4

2009-11-14T19:27:00.000-06:00

So, this weeks song is one from the forthcoming album "Heaven & Earth' of the incredible Phil Wickham. I encourage you to check him out if you've never heard him before... and PLEASE pick up "Heaven & Earth!

Peace -

Cielo

I'm walking through the bright white gates
breathing in and out your grace
all around me melodies rise
that echo with the joy inside
so I start to sing

but I can't sing loud enough

I can't sing loud enough
when I'm singing for You my God

I can't sing loud enough

I can't sing loud enough
when I'm singing for You my God

With a thunder roll and a brilliant light
your glory boasts and the heavens shine
the saints and angels stand in awe
captured by the beauty of it all
so I fall to my knees

but I can't bow low enough

I can't bow low enough
at the vision of You my God

I can't hold it all inside

I'm reaching for the One who brought me

out of death and into life
but I can't lift my hands high enough
lift my hands high enough
when I'm reaching for You my God

I'm reaching for You

I'm reaching for You my God

philwickham.com

Today...

2009-11-13T06:09:00.002-06:00

Join me in taking a moment today to just stop & be. . .

Ponder

         &

                    Dream. . .

To contemplate life. . . & love. . .

Friends. . .

Family. . .

God. . .

To reflect about the past & dream about the future. . .

City Exploration...

2009-11-09T05:56:00.000-06:00

My beautiful housemate Teish and I went on an excursion to the city on a lovely spring day last week... This trip included Sydney Harbour, the Rocks, and Teish's first ever Starbucks experience... Here are a few pictures of our adventures!

Song of the Week - Episode 3

2009-11-09T05:44:00.000-06:00

Here is the episode of the week... this week I decided to change things up a bit - and include the music video to the song! Enjoy!
Xoxo

Beautiful Ending

Oh, tragedy has taken so many
Love lost cause they all forgot who You were
And it scares me to think that I would choose
My life over You my selfish heart
Divides me from You it tears us apart

So tell me what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?

Oh, why do I let myself let go
Of hands that painted the stars and hold tears that fall?
And the pride of my heart makes me forget
It's not me but You who makes the heart beat
I'm lost without You and dying from me

So tell me what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?
Will my life find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful

At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms

So tell me what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?
Will my life find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful

Barlowgirl.com

myspace.com/barlowgirl

The iHeart Revolution... We're All In This Together...

2009-11-04T22:43:00.005-06:00

Today was the release of Hillsong United's iHeart Revolution documentary: We're All In This Together.

Four years in the making...

Over 3 years of filming...

Over 2000 individual tapes...

Over 150,000 minutes of footage...

Over 25,600 gigabytes of memory space...

Edited... over 550 days...

Thursday at 11.00am Sydney time (6.00pm Wednesday Central Time) Hillsong United broadcasted live to over 600 cinemas across the United States and Canada from the Hillsong Convention Centre in Baulkham Hills, NSW.

United introduced a couple of brand-new songs never before heard outside of the church... I had the privilege of being a part of this incredible, life changing documentary.

I encourage you (yes YOU) to get into the local cinema and watch this film!

I pray that this film causes you to think.

I pray it causes you to change

I hope that we will get of our bums... get out of our comfort-zones, and do what was

commanded of us:

"Anyone who sets himself up as "religious" by talking a good game is self-deceived. This kind of religion is hot air and only hot air. Real religion, the kind that passes muster before God the Father, is this: Reach out to the homeless and loveless in their plight, and guard against corruption from the godless world." - James 1:26-27

To Find a cinema near you: theiheartfilm.com
The next step: i-heart.org

Australian Idol

2009-10-20T00:18:00.002-05:00

On Sunday I had the opportunity to go to a taping of an episode of Australian Idol here in Sydney.

A bunch of us girls took the train from the Hills District (where we reside) to Central Station - from there we took the bus to Fox studios where the taping was held in studio.

It was the top 6 performing songs from Film & Theatre - and the guest judge was Liza Minnelli.

Song of the Week - Episode 2

2009-10-19T06:39:00.008-05:00

To Build A Home

There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills...
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust..
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home...

Cause, I built a home
for you, for me
Until it disappeared
from me, from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust........

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed it's knees

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
I held on as tightly as you held onto me
I held on as tightly as you held onto me......

Cause, I built a home
for you, for me
Until it disappeared
from me, from you

Lonely...

2009-10-17T23:20:00.001-05:00

I debated about whether I should write this blog or not... but, I finally decided to... because it is a huge relief getting this off my chest...

I have been living here in Australia for almost 10 months now... and in the same house, with the same housemates the entire time...
But, even though we've been through so much together, I still feel like the outsider in the house...
I have missed out on some great house bonding times because of my financial situation, and now I feel like after I leave here I won't be missed by those who are staying...
Is it sad when you feel like a stranger in your own house?

I live in a room with two other girls... in a house with 6 girls... but why do I feel so lonely?
Sometimes I feel unappreciated... unwanted... scared of the fact that I feel like (more often than not) I'm completely forgotten...

I know I'm probably just being paranoid... But it is difficult thinking that I am leaving here in less than 2 months - and I'm afraid that its gonna be like I was never here...

If you were here right now you would hear me sighing...

Song of the Week - Episode 1

2009-10-02T06:28:00.000-05:00

Hey, hey - I hope this day sees you well!
I decided that I would start on a weekly basis sharing music with you that has inspired me, caused me to think... or, I think are just plain amazing!

Astronaut

Hey, don't cry for me
Don't be afraid I'll be okay
Soon I'm walking on air without a care
I'm leaving today

So don't try to keep me by holding me down
Don't try to to tell me I'm in for the ground
I am an astronaut sailing the stars
The moon is where i left my heart

Tried to follow the crowd
Got trapped in the cage I had to escape
Cause this world was never for me
I was born to fly free there is no other way

So don't try to keep me by holding me down
Don't try to to tell me I'm in for the ground
I am an astronaut
Sailing the starts
The moon is where I left my heart

I hold the earth in my head
All that I am, what is given to me
Although I'm shaking I trust in the hope
That someday you'll find me in your telescope

I am an astronaut
Sailing the starts
The moon is where I left my heart

God//Life//Selfishness

2009-09-21T06:35:00.004-05:00

This is a collection of jumbled thought that kind of - spewed out onto my computer... I do apologize if it gets a little messy!

Over the past few weeks God has continually been reminding me how very much I need him every moment, of every day…
I mean, I am NOTHING without his love, grace, guidance & forgiveness!

Recently I have been reading through the book The Deity Formerly Known As God by Jarrett Stevens from Willow Creek Community Church in Chicago.

This book is based on the 1952 classic, Your God Is Too Small by J.B. Phillips… Throughout the book Stevens tackles the distorted and destructive images of God that have been formed over the years, and then he explores constructive views that Jesus used of God.

So, while reading through this book - and having a couple incredible “God encounters” over the past few days, a couple of questions were raised:

WHY do I doubt God?

                WHY do I limit the Creator of the cosmos?

                                WHY do I think I know better than HIM?

I have come to the realization that - I'm selfish!
Huge shock I know... :o)

“If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways,
take up your cross daily, and follow me.
If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it.
But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.
And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but are yourself lost or destroyed?
If anyone is ashamed of me and my message,
the Son of Man will be ashamed of that person when he returns in his glory
and in the glory of the Father and the holy angels.
I tell you the truth, some standing here right now
will not die before they see the Kingdom of God.”

~ Luke 9:23b-27 (NLT)

I had never really thought about the fact that my limiting God was an act of selfishness... I mean - He is the creator of this vast universe... and STILL he cares so much about me that he sent his own son to die for me, much less, know the number of hairs I have on my head...

Jesus is the prime example of complete selflessness... Well, he IS after all the Son of God... He was sent here to earth to save us from our sin (one of which is selfishness), but he also gives us a great model for life in general...

Now - back to the greatness of God:

By the word of the Lord were the heavens made,

and all their host by the breath of His mouth.

He gathers the waters of the sea as in a bottle;
He puts the deeps in storage places.

Let all the earth fear the Lord [revere and worship Him];
let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him.

Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the nation whose God is the Lord,
the people He has chosen as His heritage.
The Lord looks from heaven, He beholds all the sons of men;
From His dwelling place He looks [intently] upon all the inhabitants of the earth--

He Who fashions the hearts of them all,
Who considers all their doings.

Behold, the Lord's eye is upon those who fear Him [who revere and worship Him with awe],
who wait for Him and hope in His mercy and loving-kindness,

Our inner selves wait [earnestly] for the Lord;
He is our Help and our Shield.
For in Him does our heart rejoice,
because we have trusted (relied on and been confident) in His holy name.
Let Your mercy and loving-kindness,
O Lord, be upon us, in proportion to our waiting and hoping for You.

~ Psalm 33:6-22 (AMP - emphasis my own)

Okay... I don't really have anything to follow that up with... But while you chew on that verse - here is a fantastic song that was recently written by one of our team members:

Give me eyes to see more of who You are 

May what I behold still my anxious heart 

Take what I have known and break it all apart  

You my God are greater still 

No sky contains
No doubt restrains
All You are  The greatness of our God

I spend my life to know  and I'm far from close 

To all You are  the greatness of our God

Give me grace to see beyond this moment here

To believe that there is nothing left to fear

That You alone are high above it all 

You my God are greater still

And there is nothing that could ever separate us 

There is nothing that could ever
Separate us from Your love

No life no death of this I am convinced 

You my God are greater still

No words could say or song convey
All You are  The greatness of our God

I spend my life to know  and I'm far from close 

To all You are  the greatness of our God

Bondi...

2009-09-14T06:28:00.003-05:00

A Spring in Sydeny

2009-09-02T18:00:00.004-05:00

Daydreams...

2009-07-22T21:37:00.005-05:00

So, over the past few days I have been busy cleaning the house for our real-estate inspection (which is today)... Most of the girlies are on holiday - so, for the most part I did the majority of the cleaning... which is totally fine for me... I love to clean...

But - while I was cleaning, I found myself dreaming about a place of my own...
I am so thankful for all of the furniture that we have been given, and I completely understand that I am a poor college student with no job, living in college housing with 6 other college students (who also happen to be poor as well!) But I really want a place of my own...

I am an artistic person who is always dreaming and scheming up plans for my dream home... I may be a dork - but I have a journal full of pictures, floor plans, and ideas... Blame it on my talented and creative mother...

I want to be able to see all of those ideas that are jumbled in my head (or on a piece of paper) come to life...

But for now I will be okay with dreams...
So... here are a few photographs... gives you a little taste of what I love...

This is one of the most ingenious things... ever!
The windowsill with a shelf for plants, flowers, lamps... anything you want to display!

I absolutely adore this window!

I love the three totally different textures and patterns here...
the old hardwood floors, the black & white tile, with the modern floral rug... genius!

This is a brilliant combination of modern, antique, and vintage...

This chest of drawers is gorgeous!
I love the idea of taking what was intended to be in a bedroom - and using is a tv cabinet!

So... I think that maybe this is something I will do a little more regularly... Give you a little taste of my passions, and it gives me a chance to release some of this creativity that is pent-up inside of me!

No Words...

2009-07-17T01:28:00.004-05:00

I don't have words that can describe how amazing the past few weeks have been...
All I can really say is God is SO good!

Last week (July 7-11) was Hillsong Conference located at the Acer Arena... 20,000 believers from all over the globe together under one roof worshiping, learning, growing, and meeting with God...

In the video below you can see part of the conference opening celebration... think the opening ceremony of the Olympics... I had the great privilege to work alongside the creators of the opener... I spent many hours in rehearsals and run-throughs... just take a look... it about sums up the whole week...

How I WISH you all could've been there... I would try to explain it to you... but, again... No words...

My Lesson for the Day...

2009-06-18T06:06:00.004-05:00

This may not make any sense... my head has a lot of stuff rattling around up there... but I felt like I needed to share this!

Today I heard a wonderful quote from an incredible man of God...

"We need to live in the present - not the past. Because by living in this day that has never happened, gives us the opportunity to do things that have never been done."

I’m not sure why - but I got really fired up… The past is there to reflect upon and learn from… The future is there to dream about - but we are not living in it yet! We are given today!
AND we shouldn’t be wasting the days we do have! We are not called to just float by in life… we are here with a mission...

We are called… called to be a generation that rises up. A generation that isn’t afraid or ashamed of the gospel. A generation that is going to change the way the world sees the church of Jesus Christ. This generation is not one to be trifled with. We are an unstoppable force… a monsoon of love and justice with a passion to see the masses reeducated about who God is, what true love, mercy and forgiveness is…. and what it means to be a devout follower and disciple of Christ.

"I am God. I have called you to live right and well.
I have taken responsibility for you, kept you safe.
I have set you among my people to bind them to me,
and provided you as a lighthouse to the nations,
To make a start at bringing people into the open, into light:
opening blind eyes,
releasing prisoners from dungeons,
emptying the dark prisons. I am God. That's my name.
Isaiah 42:6-7 (NLT)

Mountains...

2009-06-03T19:20:00.004-05:00

I look up to the mountains; does my help come from the mountains?
No, my strength comes form God,
who made Heaven & Earth & mountains.
He won’t let you stumble,
your guardian God won’t fall asleep.
Not on your life!
Israel’s guardian will never dose or sleep!
God’s your guardian, right at your side to protect you.
Shielding you from sunstroke, sheltering you from moonstroke.
God guards you from every evil, he guards your very life.
He guards you when you leave and when you return, he guards you now.
He guards you always!
Psalm 121

I had the lovely opportunity to travel up into the mountains with two of my friends a couple of weeks ago... It was absolutely wonderful to get out of the Hills District, out into nature, and to be able to see what true Australian beauty really is.
Here is a collection of photographs that I took... these don't even begin to capture the magnificent wonder of God's creation.

Vila: relaxation & Runaway Puzzle Pieces

2009-05-26T00:05:00.002-05:00

Vila...

Oh, how I need this… Why is vacation so stressful, and NOT relaxing? Ok, don’t get me wrong, I really, truly enjoyed my time in the Blue Mountains (pictures to come!), it was wonderful to get out of the Hills districts and see what Oz has to offer… but still, I came away from break feeling more stressed out & anxious than I did when it began!

I do love being able to travel. I love living out of a suitcase… it took me 3 months to finally unpack my bags here, because I love the feeling of being able to jet off to any part of the world in an instant… I think these past 5 months have been the longest I haven’t traveled via airplane… But once I have settled into a routine, it’s hard to leave it!

Anyways! I feel at home here now… I am surrounded by amazing people, I have the privilege of attending and working at one of the most influential and well-know churches in the world… So, what’s my deal? Why can’t I relax and rest?

Is it because I am still struggling with surrendering my life? I look at it this way:

I’m a puzzle. A big, 1000 piece puzzle that is strewn all over the floor… My Creator is putting me together piece by piece, but I as the puzzle, thinks that I’m able to complete myself without the help of the Puzzlemaker! I’m the little pieces that are hiding under the sofa, and behind the floorlamp, trying to survive all on my own…

Oh, dear... Well, when it comes 'Vila' I am working on that. I'm gonna try to take a breather & enjoy my week.
And trust? That is between God & I... and we are getting there!
Xoxo

Life, and my biggest issue with it...

2009-05-25T01:30:00.002-05:00

Over this past weekend I have been really melancholy, and depressed all because of a stupid thing called:

Finances

I am currently living half-way across the world from the security and love that family and friends provide. I am so thankful for this experience, and I know that I am here for a reason, but it is so difficult to give all control over to God, and to trust him with everything… everything!

I know that my being in Oz is the first step of many that God has in store for me - but nevertheless, it is so hard being so vulnerable.

Let me ask you a question:
Why do we think we can manage our lives better that God?

I’m still trying to figure this out… because for SOME reason, I still think I know what I want and what I need more than the Creator of the Universe! Which is bull by the way…

Anyways, my being here in Australia is am amazing opportunity but definitely God’s choice to make sure that I rely on him over anything, or anyone else.

In the car on my way to my performance this morning, I knew that there was something missing. That despair that I was feeling all weekend was not from Christ . So, right then, I was led to this lovely verse:

I want you woven into a tapestry of love,
in touch with everything there is to know of God.
Then you will have minds confident and at rest,
focused on Christ, God’s great mystery.
All the richest treasures of wisdom and knowledge
are embedded in that mystery!
~ Colossians 2:3-5 (The Message)

The entire time that I was worrying about how I was going to make ends meet, or how I was going to get a job etc. God was not a part of it. I was focusing more on me, myself, and I. Pathetic right?

No one who hopes in me ever regrets it.
~ Isaiah 49:23b (The Message)

God is good. God is great. God will never, EVER fail us.

I am still weak, and vulnerable, but I serve an awesome, loving, and capable God who has me in his hands.

“I am God, your very own God,
who stirs up the sea and whips up the waves,
named God-of-the-Angel-Armies.
I teach you how to talk, word by word, a
nd personally watch over you.”
~ Isaiah 51:15-16 (The Message)

Sorry for the neglect...

2009-05-19T22:01:00.002-05:00

I am so sorry that I have been so bad at updating you with pictures and stories... I promise that they will be coming in abundance... But please be patient with me!
Here are a few images of the past month or so... Something to keep you coming back for more!

24/04/07

2009-04-24T05:44:00.003-05:00

So, today is the anniversary of the death of my mentor and friend, Kaye Hirsh...
Kaye was a Proverbs 31 woman... She was an amazing mother, wife, mentor, friend, church leader, & woman of God...

A good woman is hard to find, and worth far more than diamonds.
Her husband trusts her without reserve, and never has reason to regret it.
Never spiteful, she treats him generously all her life long.
She shops around for the best yarns and cottons, and enjoys knitting and sewing.
She's like a trading ship that sails to faraway places and brings back exotic surprises.
She's up before dawn, preparing breakfast for her family and organizing her day.
She looks over a field and buys it, then, with money she's put aside, plants a garden.
First thing in the morning, she dresses for work, rolls up her sleeves, eager to get started.
She senses the worth of her work, is in no hurry to call it quits for the day.
She's skilled in the crafts of home and hearth, diligent in homemaking.
She's quick to assist anyone in need, reaches out to help the poor.
She doesn't worry about her family when it snows;
their winter clothes are all mended and ready to wear.
She makes her own clothing, and dresses in colorful linens and silks.
Her husband is greatly respected when he deliberates with the city fathers.
She designs gowns and sells them, brings the sweaters she knits to the dress shops.
Her clothes are well-made and elegant, and she always faces tomorrow with a smile.
When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say, and she always says it kindly.
She keeps an eye on everyone in her household, and keeps them all busy and productive.
Her children respect and bless her; her husband joins in with words of praise:
"Many women have done wonderful things, but you've outclassed them all!"
Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades.
The woman to be admired and praised is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.
Give her everything she deserves!
Festoon her life with praises!
~Proverbs 31:10 - 31

The day she died I had written this little thing on my previous blog... and having had recently gone through all of my old posts, I decided to place it here...

~~~

Kaye, you are the most amazing person to every walk the face of the earth. The legacy you are leaving behind will not only bless those who were fortunate to know you, but will impact the entire world!
Your love and passion for youth inspired me to pursue ministry, and I swear to live my life totally and completely for God!
Thank you for being my mentor, role model and great friend... I will never forget you!

~~~

I can't believe that she's been gone 2 years... Somedays it feels like it's been longer... and others it feels like it was just last week.

I miss you Kaye-Kaye...
I love you,
Stina

Insecurity...

2009-04-21T19:15:00.004-05:00

Someone asked me the other day what I have been struggling with, and what they could be praying for... And I decided to share this with you, because I feel like it's something that many people have issues with, and that it's something that Satan uses to tear us down, especially when we are in great situations...

Recently I've really struggling with insecurity... It's been an issue in many areas in my life...

1. There are so many amazing believers here, who already know where they are going, and what they are doing beyond their years here. I know that I am here for a reason, and I know God's in control. Even though parts of me may doubt it, I know that He has a huge, amazing plan for my future... The majority of the students here are from very Petecostal churches, and for me, growing up in a Baptist church... that's a little bit of a shock! It's not too bad though... but there are still a few areas that I am really being stretched in, thank God!

2. I am surrounded by gorgeous, skinny beach girls who are pretty much here to snag a husband. For those of you who know me well, you know that is NOT the reason why I'm here! But it is difficult being around so many beautiful girls... I have struggled with body image, but it's something that I tried to leave behind me back in the US... But the biggest struggle with this one, is a cultural thing. They don't put much weight into modesty here. I grew up in a family, and church that encouraged girls and women to be modest in order to help build up our Brothers, but here, wearing a skimpy bikini, and micro-mini skirts is normal! I'm one who loves trendy clothing, but I've worked it out so that I can be trendy and modest at the same time... I don't know... I could go on for hours on this topic...

3. Then there's my insecurity when it comes to music. I never had formal music training, and have never been much of a songwriter... So, thankfully I'm getting a bit of that, but I still don't believe that music performance, worship leading etc. is necessarily where God's got me going...

So, your prayers would be greatly appreciated! I am really enjoying my time here... I'm growing as both an individual, and as a believer... and I cannot wait to see what God has in store next!

Hugs, hugs, hugs

2009-04-20T19:44:00.003-05:00

Well, I was digging through the archives of past blogs the other day and found this little post that is still very relevant...

~~~

I'm at chris and kelly's right now watching the kids...at the moment there is peace in the house, you would never guess that WWIII was about ready to break out about a 1/2 an hour ago...

but after sitting the kids down for time-out's i got a HUGE hug from james...and that brought to mind the book i just finished reading called 'the official hugs book' it goes into a deep (but hilarious) discussion on the different types of hugs and the way you can use a hug.

for those who don't know...i love hugs!

if i had a terrible day at work...give me a hug!

if i just completed the worst course at school...EVER!!! give me a hug!

if i blew it...hug me!

if you see me...GIVE ME A HUG!!!

hugs are healing, hugs are comforting, hugs mean more to me than anything you can think of!

please...hug me...

~~~

Hmm... Ok, so I haven't seen my kiddies for almost 4 months (and I miss you 3 terribly!!), but the point I was trying to make is that I love hugs... I miss hugs... I'm still in the process of finding a 'healing' hugger... so, if you're out there... Here I am... Hug me...

An Aussie autumn is no autumn at all...

2009-04-15T01:39:00.007-05:00

So, it is officially autumn here in Australia... it's odd to think that it is spring back home...
Autumn is so different here...
For example:
The trees don't change colour. I am use to maples, oaks, and birch trees... while here they have palms, and gum trees.
Autumn is a time where you feel winter is approaching... cool mornings, cool evenings, and cool days... here we have two of the three... The days are still in the mid-20's and early-30's (70-75 degrees) and sunny.

I miss the rain.
I miss frost.
I miss picking pussy willows.
I miss deer and pheasant hunting.
I miss homemade strawberry jam.
Don't get me wrong... I love Australia... but it's different...

So, join me in remembering the motherland...

A couple Easter thoughts...

2009-04-07T03:44:00.005-05:00

Here we are... only 5 days away from Easter, and the celebration of our Messiah’s resurrection!
But, before that stone was rolled away, and He ascended into heaven... Jesus had to die. So, I decided to do a little research in the Bible in order to understand fully why God had Jesus carry all of our sins on that cross...

This is what I have come up with:

God’s law demanded a sacrifice to atone for our sins, and the death of God’s perfect Son made that sacrifice once and for all.

God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement, through faith in his blood.
He did this to demonstrate his justice, committed beforehand unpunished -
he did it to demonstrate his justice at the present time,
so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith is Jesus.
Romans 3:25-26

God wanted us to recognize the extent of his amazing, never-ending love...

The Son is the radiance of God’s glory and the exact representation of his being,

sustaining all things by his powerful word.
After he had provided purification for sins,
he sat down at the right hand of the Majesty in heaven.
Hebrews 1:3

For God demonstrates his own love for us in this:
While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Romans 5:8

Now, let’s take it back a couple thousand years, to around 1400 B.C. when the Israelites were commanded to build the Tabernacle by God, under Moses... Inside the Tabernacle was the Holy Place, and inside that, was the Most Holy Place where God resided. Now, there was so much detail to the Most Holy Place, but one of the most significant features was the curtain (or veil) that separated the Holy Place, from the Most Holy Place.

Make a curtain (or veil) of blue, purple and scarlet yarn and finely twisted linen,
with cherubim worked into it by skilled craftsman.
Hang it with gold hooks on four posts of acacia wood
overlaid with gold and standing on four silver bases.
Hang the curtain from the clasps
and place the Ark of the Testimony (or Covenant) behind the curtain.
The curtain will separate the Holy Place from the Most Holy Place.
Exodus 26:31-33

The word “veil” in Hebrew means a screen, divider or separator that hides. The curtain was shielding a holy God from sinful man. In essence it was a barrier to make sure that man could not carelessly enter into God’s fearsome presence. God’s eyes are too pure to look on evil and He can tolerate no sin.

Your eyes are too pure to look on evil:
you cannot tolerate wrong.
Habakkuk 1:13

Whoever entered into the Most Holy Place was entering the very presence of God. Even the high priest, could only pass through the veil and enter this sacred dwelling once a year, on the Day of Atonement and he had to go through a entire day’s worth of preparation in order to enter the Most Holy Place... in addition, the high priest took a blood sacrifice.

At that moment the curtain of the temple
was torn in two from top to bottom
Matthew 27: 51

So, the torn veil illustrated Jesus’ body broken for us, opening the way for us to come to God. The ultimate offering had been sacrificed... no longer would we have to make animal sacrifices.
We can now boldly enter the presence of God... without fear of being struck dead... Jesus bridged the gap between humanity and an almighty God.

We who have run for our very lives to God
have every reason to grab the promised hope with both hands and never let go.
It’s an unbreakable spiritual lifeline,
reaching past all appearances right to the very presence of God where Jesus,
running on ahead of us,
has taken up his permanent post as high priest for us,
in the order of Melchizedek.
Hebrews 6:19-20

BUT... that wasn’t the end...

Three days later our Saviour, who just died the most horrible death rose again... And that is the reason why we celebrate. We celebrate a true love... A love the Father had for us... A love that caused a completely innocent man, who was also God, to take the sin of the entire world upon his shoulders...

So, enjoy your holiday, but don’t forget about the real reason we celebrate Easter...

True Love
By: Phil Wickham
Come close listen to the story
about a love more faithful than the morning
the Father gave his only Son just to save us

The earth was shaking in the dark
all creation felt a Father’s broken heart
tears were filling heaven’s eyes
the day that true love died, the day that true love died

when blood and water hit the ground
walls we couldn’t move came crashing down
we were free and made alive
the day that true love died, the day that true love died

Search your heart you know you can’t deny it
loose your life, just so you can find it
the Father gave his only Son just to save us

The earth was shaking in the dark
all creation felt a Father’s broken heart
tears were filling heaven’s eyes
the day that true love died, the day that true love died

when blood and water hit the ground
walls we couldn’t move came crashing down
we were free and made alive
the day that true love died, the day that true love died

Now Jesus is alive, Jesus is alive
Jesus is alive, Jesus is alive
He rose again

When blood and water hit the ground
walls we couldn’t move came crashing down
we were free and made alive
the day that true love died, the day that true love died
Come close listen to the story

A weekend of trials...

2009-03-23T00:35:00.003-05:00

Well... this has been quite a weekend... On Friday morning I woke up with a swollen foot. I didn't think too much of it, due to the fact that I've been walking 5 miles a day in a pair of shoes that are too big for my feet. BUT Saturday morning I woke up unable to walk farther than to the sofa. My right foot and calf were twice the size they should be... Normally my toes don't look like little sausages! One of my housemates ran next door to our sweetheart of a neighbour who took a look at my foot... apparently I was bit or stung by some sort of insect...
I ended up either in bed or on the sofa all weekend with a sausage leg covered in ice and propped up on a billion pillows. Praying for a miracle I called in sick to the Events crew on Sunday... I figured I'd end up being a burden more than anything.
So, I didn't see anyone but my housemates (and only occasionally) all weekend - resulting in feeling the tiniest bit homesick... maybe it wasn't homesickness as much as spring fever in the middle of autumn...
I hate (when I have to) keep myself entertained... I watched so many movies it's not even funny - but I did have a great time Skyping my family and friends... It also gave me a fantastic opportunity to spend some quality time with Jesus!
Since the swelling didn't go down (in fact, it got worse) over the weekend, I decided to skip my one class on Monday, and go to the doctor along with my housemate Clarissa who has pinkeye (yuck!). It turns out that I had a allergic reaction to the bite/sting, and my skin is infected. So, now I'm on 2 meds: an antibiotic which will help with the infection and an antihistamine which is going to help bring the inflammation around the 'injection site' down.
I am now sitting on my bed in lots of pain because of the walk to and from the doctors... but I thought I would share this with you because we are only 3 days away from Colour Conference #1, and 6 days away from the most amazing album recording in the history of Hillsong Church. Satan is terrified of what these 2 events are going to do to the local and international Church!
Proof they are going to be epic:

The only way I am going to survive the next 2 weeks are with the help of:
1. Jesus Christ
2. Sleep
3. Pain medication
We serve a great God...
Be blessed

3 months gone...

2009-03-17T18:32:00.006-05:00

Wow... it's been awhile since I've written my last blog... I do apologize!
Life has been slightly crazy... My days are packed full of classes, work at church, and trying to fit in time to socialize.
So, I'll give you a little update of what life has been like for me:
I've been in class for the past 2 months with 20 second semester students who are all W&CA, the majority of which are vocal students. I am the only female guitarist in my class, and 1 of the 2 that were in this year's intake. So, needless to say, I am used often!

My Mondays consist of a 3 1/2 hour class on Musicianship, which is mainly training us in our craft... which starts at 8.15am... not too bad, but it is when you have to walk 3 miles to class!

My Tuesday classes start at the bright and early hour of 8am with a 2 1/2 hour Old Testament lecture, followed by another Musicianship class. Every 2 weeks, I have had afternoon meetings with a few of the pastors and my boss preparing for the Colour Your World Conference (which is only 1 WEEK AWAY!!)... we are planning and performing a comedy act for the women... so the prep is filling my days that I am suppose to have time off!

Wednesdays are my really long days... Starting at 8.30, and finally getting out of class at 4.30... Songwriting which is most often taught by Dave Andrews one of the studio musicians here, but we have had Ray Badham, and Mia Fieldes guest teach over the past few weeks. Following our weekly Chapel service I have a 3 hour Personal Leadership lecture with our campus's principal Lee Burns, and to round out the day I have an Old Testament class (where we hash our what we learned in our pervious OT class)

Thursdays we are required to work and attend the Sisterhood meetings (our women's ministry), and then I've got a 3 hour Personal Leadership and Communication in Ministry class in the afternoon.

Fridays and Saturdays usually consist of me trying to catch up on the sleep I've missed throughout the week and working on assignments...

Sundays for me start with a brisk walk to church at 6.30am, working our 8.45 service with the Events crew, attending the 10.45 service, taking a quick nap, and getting back to church at 4.30 for the 6.00 evening service.
Now the next 2 weeks are going to be even more insane!
Colour training starts one week from today... Conference 1 is from the 26th through the 28th, Album recording (!!!!) is on on 29th, and Conference 2 is from the 30th through the 1st... thank goodness we've got both weeks off of school...

Well, I guess I shall leave you with a summary of my life so far in a collage of pictures.
Enjoy...

Adventures in the (AT THE) Outback

2009-02-23T17:47:00.003-06:00

I am going to share with you something that happened to me the other day...
So, Sunday night after a very long day at church, a group of gals and I went to the Outback for a late dinner (I know... we went to the Outback...);
we had to wait for 15 minutes to get a table.
Ok, we are super hungry at this point... finally we ask (ASK) for our waitress...
20 minutes later...
Now, we finally order, Tash and I ordered soup and Anna ordered a burger...
30 minutes later we get our soup....
We finish our soup... still waiting on the burger...
20 minutes later the burger comes... RAW!!
We are not happy... another waiter comes by, we stop him... he says "Eww, gross!" (exactly what we were thinking), takes the burger, gets us a new one... which is cold...
Being avid Outbackers we are usually happy with the service... not today!
Tash makes our waitress cry... not on purpose...
We get half our meal free... we'll be back...
We love you Outback... we just don't like you right now...

Events, events

2009-02-13T23:49:00.002-06:00

I've been here in Oz almost 5 weeks... and it feels like 5 months..

This past week I found out what my areas of service in the church were (as apart of college, we are required to be involved with 2 weekend services (church life), and 1 church ministry a week (fieldwork)... ) and I'm still in shock...

Let me explain:

So, I am here studying Worship and Creative Arts (W&CA)... and have been really debating, and wrestling with God about possibly changing my majour to Pastoral Leadership with a pathway of Events. After lots of prayer, God confirmed that I'm here and doing what He's got planned.

Well, when it comes to church life and fieldwork, the college places you in an area that goes along with your majour (ex. W&CA=choir, Pastoral youth=youth etc.)... So, I'm expecting to be placed in choir or an extension service for my church life, and I was shocked when I found out that I was placed in... EVENTS!! I'm the only W&CA student doing events... all of the other kids doing Events are Pastoral Events students. THEN I find out that my fieldwork is none other that... Creative Events!!

For those of you who don't know, my passion is behind-the-scenes work. My Events team makes sure the church services on the weekend go smoothly; we do everything from making sure the communion servers are there (and if they aren't we do communion!) to personally escorting the pastors and staff to their seats. Creative Events on the other hand, is the team that (pretty much) RUNS the special events in the church... My next big events: The Colour Conference, Album recording (!!!!!), and Hillsong Conference.

I'm still in the clouds! God is such a provider... I'm where I'm suppose to be, and now doing what's been in my heart for so long!

Well, I just had to share that... I'm off to an all girls Valentine's Day party... I've got to be at church at 7 tomorrow morning... that means leaving at 6.30!

But I love it!

Be blessed, and have a fantastic Valentine's Day

Stina

Welcome to the land of Oz...

2009-01-18T05:20:00.004-06:00

Well... I made it! Thanks to all of you who prayed for my journey from Denver to LA. I made my flight... barely! We arrived 5 minutes before the LA/Sydney flight was to leave... I finally made it on the place 15 minutes later... Thank the Lord that someone mentioned to the flight attendants that I was on my way... they were closing the door as I reached the plane.

I arrived at 7.30 in the morning local time, and finally made it to the college around 10.30. I have 4 lovely housemates:

Clarissa: The Mexican dancer who is the other avocado lover

Laura: The tall, beautiful, and incredibly talented Canadian who has the voice of an angel

Priska: The adorable, pink loving Indonesian songwriter

Sarah: My gorgeous roommate =)

We live in a very nice stucco townhouse in a gated community with access to a pool, gym and sauna. We are about a 25 minutes walk from college... which feels super long when it's hot... and super sunny...

Well, I am loving it so far, BUT we've got 2 weeks until school starts! Now I need to find something to fill up my time!

Any ideas?

Love you all, have a lovely night!

Adventures in Denver...

2009-01-10T20:50:00.002-06:00

So, after an emotional goodbye with my family, I checked into the Minneapolis airport, to find out that my flight to Chicago was changed due to bad weather... Awesome!! They changed my flight to Denver, where Clarissa was flying in... We met up, had a great time chatting...

BUT we find out that our Denver to LA flight was delayed... By 3 HOURS!!!

Which brings us to LA at 9.59... our flight to Sydney leaves at 10.13. We've got 14 minutes to make the connection.

Please pray that:

1. We are not delayed even longer

2. We can make our connection in LA

3. We continue to trust and rely on God to get us through this

4. We keep a good sense of humour

Only a day away...

2009-01-09T08:35:00.003-06:00

Here I am... saying my final goodbyes...

Spending as much time with my family as possible...

Finishing packing...

As of right now, I'm not too terrified... I know I'm going to miss everyone... but I'm doing God's will! And nothing... NOTHING feels better than doing what God wants.

Well, farewell Minnesota... Farewell FBC... I'll see you soon...

11 monthes and counting... Starting today!

Love you all!

Luggage, candles, and my future husband

2009-01-05T21:07:00.005-06:00

Well, here I am trying to pack up my life, and not exceed my 100 pound weight limit!

I figure, if I can fit everything I own in 2 suitcases... I'm doing pretty well!

I'm sitting here in my candle lit room, packing my clothes in space saver bags (truly a gift from God), listening to the ultimate crooner: Frank Sinatra, who, for those of you who do not know, I am going to be marrying in my next life!!

Well, if I do not see you before I head to Oz, remember:

Drink coffee

Dance in the rain

Hug a tree

and think of me!

Love, love

A new year... and a new adventure...

2009-01-01T14:11:00.003-06:00

Well, here we are in a new year... 2009...

2008 held so many adventures, challenges, and opportunities to grow, & learn... One of the many opportunities that was dealt towards me, was my acceptance into Hillsong International Leadership College.

So, here I am, packing up my whole life... well, everything but my family and friends. That is going to be my real challenge, leaving most everyone I love to follow the Love of My Life to 'the ends of the earth', literally.

Even though this is an amazing adventure, it's still terrifying... I'm unsure of what God's grand plan is, I know it's something amazing, but sometimes it would be nice if He clued me in once and awhile.

I pray that God blesses this coming year for each and everyone of you...

Blessings,

Kristina

...life...

2008-12-03T22:13:00.005-06:00

So, for those of you who I have never met before, and my new friends who don't know my story... I decided, now was as good a time as any to tell you about myself:

Well, I was born in a small farming town in.... sorry... I couldn't resist!

I have been so blessed to have been raised in a home where Christ was the centre of everything. At an early age I decided to serve Christ with my life... Which was the best decision I ever made... but 12 years ago my perfect life changed...

My father was on a fishing trip to Canada with a few close mates, and only one of them made it home alive.

My Dad

On their way home Dad, my Grandfather, and their best friends were all in a car accident Daddy was the only survivor. He was rushed to the closest majour hospital in Duluth MN, and no one thought that he would even survive the trip there... well, they were wrong. He lived.

He was in a coma at the hospital, and they said he'd never wake up. He's awake.

He'd never walk, or talk... HA! He does both!

He is truly a walking miracle... but here is where my struggle begins.

I was very young at the time, and was suddenly thrown into to position of 'Mother' to my 4 year old brother. Mom was practically living at the hospital, and I was scared... I had to grow up quickly... very quickly!

After 2 years in the hospital and nursing homes, Dad moved home, but he wasn't the same man. He suffered a tramatic brain injury, and is now like a 7 year old... in a 67 year old man's body. Rarely does he remember my name, he throws temper-tantrums like a 4 year old, and makes me so mad that sometimes I'd like to spit...

I didn't have much of a childhood. Like I mentioned, I helped raise my brother... I was teacher, chauffeur, sister, & mom. By the time I was 12 I was cooking, cleaning, traveling, and making some majour decision that even people 2 my age weren't ready to make.
The things that I have see and experienced most people couldn't even comprehend.

So, here's where I get transparent...

I have the daily struggle of deciding whether to depend on myself, or on Jesus to make it through the day... well, after falling on my face in shame too many times... I have realized... No one runs my life like Jesus.

HE is my true Daddy. I have had to look to HIM for comfort. I won't have my father walk my down the aisle one day, which is sad, but I remember: I have a heavenly Daddy... who is waiting for His bride.

I'm still a work in progress... I always will be... everyday I still have to make the decision to wake up and committ my life to the Lord, but when I do... I know... It's worth it!

My darling girlies...

2008-12-03T21:32:00.004-06:00

Over the past year and a half I have had the opportunity to be the small group leader for 8 amazing girls ages 12-13... This has been one of the most rewarding experiences I have ever had.

Lizzie, Emily, Vanessa, Nikki, Elizabeth, Annika, Sarah, and Caitlin: You girls have changed my life!

Thank you, I'm going to continue praying and thinking about you even though I am thousands of miles away... and when I get back... you can BET there will be a party!!!

Reminders

2008-12-01T13:39:00.004-06:00

Well, I'm back! I'm so sorry about neglecting you all! These past few weeks have been... crazy! I leave for Hillsong in only 5 weeks, and there is so much that needs to be done before I leave.

Today, for example, I transfered a hunk of money to of Aussie account. I called the local clinic requesting copies of my medical forms for my visa, stopped by and picked them up, but had to run to ANOTHER office a half-an-hour away and wait for an hour to receive copies of my chest X-rays, which my Doc had forgotten to send with the med forms. After that I even signed up for a new credit card!

I think that God is using this whole visa process as a way to challenge my faith... and remind me that HE (and no one else) is in control! I realize that recently I've been trying to run my life, take control of my future, and depending on myself to make it through this... and I finally had to remind myself that this isn't my life... it's HIS!

So, after a majour break down in my kitchen (sorry Mom!) it really hit me... In 6 weeks I leave the country, everyone I love... and again, God is in control! I am so excited to see how God is going to change me in the next 11 months... He is amazing isn't he?!?

I just wanted to thank you all for your love and support, I can't even express how important your thoughts and prayers mean to me!

I promise, from now on, I will keep you updated!

Faithfulness & Adventures in the Down Under

2008-08-23T22:21:00.004-05:00

Throughout my entire life, and all of it's ups and downs, God has been faithful... I have been so blessed by the family He has given me, the adventures that I have been able to take, and the incredible opportunity to live... not just 'live'... but live entirely for HIM!!

And now the 'ride' of life is taking me somewhere I have never been... it's taking me on an adventure that I could have never dreamed about, and this adventure is the next step in God's incredible plan for my life...

AUSTRALIA!!!

That's right! On Monday I start this amazing adventure... for 2 weeks I will be in Sydney, finding a place to live, setting up a bank account, meeting some new people, have a job interview, and get to know my way around the area...

It seems so far away some days... and then others, I remind myself that in exactly 5 months I'll be starting school!

I'm so excited to be living out my life, surrounded by people who have the same passion as me... the passion to serve God in anything and everything we do... Serving Him with our gifts, and going out to tell others about His amazing love, mercy, forgiveness, and passion for this world!

So, join me! I would love it if you would be praying for me as I start this journey... I can't do this alone...

I love you all, and I'll keep you updated!

~Stina

With Everything: A Glorious Sunrise

2008-07-27T09:11:00.003-05:00

Feeling kind of out of sorts this morning, I was looking forward to the 15 minutes car ride to town to spend some time getting my heart in the right place with the LORD...

and on my way to rehearsal He met with me...

the sun was just beginning to rise, and as I sat in my little car among the cool fog of the early morning, streams of golden light shone across the road, and all of a sudden I felt God's amazing presence...

Just me, fog, a golden sunrise, and my Saviour...

And as I was overwhelmed by God's forgiveness, mercy and love this song began to play:

WITH EVERYTHING

Words and Music By: Joel Houston

Open our eyes

To see the things that make Your heart cry

To be be this church that You would desire

Your light to be seen

Break sown our pride

An all the walls we've built up inside

Our earthly crowns and all our desires

We lay at Your feet

Let hope rise

and darkness tremble

In Your holy light

that every eyes will see

Jesus our God

Great and mighty to be praised

God of all days

Glorious in all of Your ways

Oh the majesty, the wonder and grace

In the light of Your Name

With everything

We will shout for Your glory

With everything

We will shout forth Your praise

Our hearts they cry

Be glorified

Be lifted high above all

For You are King

With everything

We will shout forth Your praise

Our God is so mighty, awesome and worthy of all praise!!!

His love completely baffles me... but I am so honoured to be loved and cherished...

Isaiah 53

2008-07-02T10:09:00.004-05:00

The other day I was studying the book of Isaiah, which happens to be one of my favourite books of the Bible, and stumbled upon this amazing chapter.

2b There was nothing beautiful or majestic about his appearance,

nothing to attract us to him.

3 He was despised and rejected- a man of sorrows,

acquainted with deepest grief.

We turned our backs on him and looked the other way.

He was despised, and we did not care.

4 Yet it was our weaknesses he carried;

it was our sorrows that weighed him down.

And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God,

a punishment for his own sins!

5 But he was pierced for our rebellion,

crushed for our sins.

He was beaten so we could be whole.

He was whipped so we could be healed.

This is just the first part of the chapter!! I've read this before, but it just hit me today... It was for me. As Jesus hung on that cross, dying the most painful death, and breathing his final breaths... my name was on his mind!!! He was beaten, whipped, and tortured for us... Doesn't that just give you goosebumps?!?

I know it's kinda pathetic that I just realized this now... But isn't God amazing... The fact that he loves me still blows my mind...

It's True!!

2008-06-16T10:07:00.002-05:00

I was accepted at Hillsong International Leadership College!!!!!!

God is so good isn't he?? I am so excited... but at the same time... terrified! This is a huge step I am taking. I have to just put all of my trust in Jesus, it's hard, but totally worth it!!

With moving to Australia, there is so much to do, and so many little details that need to be covered.

Right now I have to pay to secure my place at the college, and then I really need to focus on finding a place to live!

Why is that so hard you may ask?

Well, the school placed students in homes kind of like a foreign exchange program, until this year!!! Apparently it got to be too much and the school had to drop that program. Now, I have to find someone all on my own! The housing the school offers are super expensive apartments, that I just can't afford!

So, If you happen to know anyone in the Sydney, Baulkham Hills area... Let me know!

Love, Love~

Kristina

Disney Princess...

2008-06-06T10:32:00.001-05:00

MARATHON!!!

= )

Yup! My group of 6th grade girls are coming over tonight for a sleepover and Princess marathon... pray please! 8 12 year old girls and me... It will be fun... but who knows what can happen!

I'll let ya'll know how it went,

Over and out

~Stina

Back At It

2008-06-04T12:30:00.004-05:00

Well, my dear friends, It has been a long time!

I apologize for my neglect... I have gotten out of the habit of blogging, but I have decided get back at it again!

Here I will let you know what God has been doing in my life, what I happen to be reading at the time, life's adventures and all of my 'Lucy' moments on the way!

I am so excited to be back at this... I hope that my life isn't too boring and that maybe, just maybe you'll learn something about me that you didn't know!

Blessings, and love,

Kristina