Kristina
Here is the episode of the week... this week I decided to change things up a bit - and include the music video to the song! Enjoy!
Xoxo
Beautiful Ending
Oh, tragedy has taken so many
Love lost cause they all forgot who You were
And it scares me to think that I would choose
My life over You my selfish heart
Divides me from You it tears us apart

So tell me what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?

Oh, why do I let myself let go
Of hands that painted the stars and hold tears that fall?
And the pride of my heart makes me forget
It's not me but You who makes the heart beat
I'm lost without You and dying from me

So tell me what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?
Will my life find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful

At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms

So tell me what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?
Will my life find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful




(c) BarlowGirl 2009
Kristina
Today was the release of Hillsong United's iHeart Revolution documentary: We're All In This Together. 
Four years in the making... 
Over 3 years of filming...
Over 2000 individual tapes...
Over 150,000 minutes of footage...
Over 25,600 gigabytes of memory space...
Edited... over 550 days...



Thursday at 11.00am Sydney time (6.00pm Wednesday Central Time) Hillsong United broadcasted live to over 600 cinemas across the United States and Canada from the Hillsong Convention Centre in Baulkham Hills, NSW.



United introduced a couple of brand-new songs never before heard outside of the church... I had the privilege of being a part of this incredible, life changing documentary.
I encourage you (yes YOU) to get into the local cinema and watch this film!

I pray that this film causes you to think.
I pray it causes you to change
I hope that we will get of our bums... get out of our comfort-zones, and do what was
commanded of us:

"Anyone who sets himself up as "religious" by talking a good game is self-deceived. This kind of religion is hot air and only hot air. Real religion, the kind that passes muster before God the Father, is this: Reach out to the homeless and loveless in their plight, and guard against corruption from the godless world." - James 1:26-27


To Find a cinema near you: theiheartfilm.com
The next step: i-heart.org

Kristina
On Sunday I had the opportunity  to go to a taping of an episode of Australian Idol here in Sydney.

A bunch of us girls took the train from the Hills District (where we reside) to Central Station - from there we took the bus to Fox studios where the taping was held in studio.

It was the top 6 performing songs from Film & Theatre - and the guest judge was Liza Minnelli.










Kristina
To Build A Home
There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills...
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust..
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home...

Cause, I built a home
for you, for me
Until it disappeared
from me, from you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust........

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed it's knees

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
I held on as tightly as you held onto me
I held on as tightly as you held onto me......

Cause, I built a home
for you, for me
Until it disappeared
from me, from you




(c) The Cinematic Orchestra 2007
cinematicorchestra.com
Kristina
I debated about whether I should write this blog or not... but, I finally decided to... because it is a huge relief getting this off my chest...

I have been living here in Australia for almost 10 months now... and in the same house, with the same housemates the entire time...
But, even though we've been through so much together, I still feel like the outsider in the house...
I have missed out on some great house bonding times because of my financial situation, and now I feel like after I leave here I won't be missed by those who are staying...
Is it sad when you feel like a stranger in your own house?

I live in a room with two other girls... in a house with 6 girls... but why do I feel so lonely?
Sometimes I feel unappreciated... unwanted... scared of the fact that I feel like (more often than not) I'm completely forgotten...

I know I'm probably just being paranoid... But it is difficult thinking that I am leaving here in less than 2 months - and I'm afraid that its gonna be like I was never here...


If you were here right now you would hear me sighing...
Kristina
Hey, hey - I hope this day sees you well!
I decided that I would start on a weekly basis sharing music with you that has inspired me, caused me to think... or, I think are just plain amazing!

Astronaut
Hey, don't cry for me
Don't be afraid I'll be okay
Soon I'm walking on air without a care
I'm leaving today

So don't try to keep me by holding me down
Don't try to to tell me I'm in for the ground
I am an astronaut sailing the stars
The moon is where i left my heart

Tried to follow the crowd
Got trapped in the cage I had to escape
Cause this world was never for me
I was born to fly free there is no other way

So don't try to keep me by holding me down
Don't try to to tell me I'm in for the ground
I am an astronaut
Sailing the starts
The moon is where I left my heart

I hold the earth in my head
All that I am, what is given to me
Although I'm shaking I trust in the hope
That someday you'll find me in your telescope

I am an astronaut
Sailing the starts
The moon is where I left my heart




(c) Jonas Myrin 2009
myspace.com/jonasmyrin
Kristina
This is a collection of jumbled thought that kind of - spewed out onto my computer... I do apologize if it gets a little messy!

Over the past few weeks God has continually been reminding me how very much I need him every moment, of every day…
I mean, I am NOTHING without his love, grace, guidance & forgiveness!

Recently I have been reading through the book The Deity Formerly Known As God by Jarrett Stevens from Willow Creek Community Church in Chicago.

This book is based on the 1952 classic, Your God Is Too Small by J.B. Phillips… Throughout the book Stevens tackles the distorted and destructive images of God that have been formed over the years, and then he explores constructive views that Jesus used of God.
  
So, while reading through this book - and having a couple incredible “God encounters” over the past few days, a couple of questions were raised:
  
WHY do I doubt God?

                WHY do I limit the Creator of the cosmos?

                                WHY do I think I know better than HIM?


I have come to the realization that - I'm selfish!
Huge shock I know... :o)
 
“If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways,
take up your cross daily, and follow me.
If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it.
But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.
And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but are yourself lost or destroyed?
If anyone is ashamed of me and my message,
the Son of Man will be ashamed of that person when he returns in his glory
and in the glory of the Father and the holy angels.
I tell you the truth, some standing here right now
will not die before they see the Kingdom of God.”
~ Luke 9:23b-27 (NLT)

    
I had never really thought about the fact that my limiting God was an act of selfishness... I mean - He is the creator of this vast universe... and STILL he cares so much about me that he sent his own son to die for me, much less, know the number of hairs I have on my head...
    
Jesus is the prime example of complete selflessness... Well, he IS after all the Son of God... He was sent here to earth to save us from our sin (one of which is selfishness), but he also gives us a great model for life in general...
  
Now - back to the greatness of God:

By the word of the Lord were the heavens made,
and all their host by the breath of His mouth.
    

  
He gathers the waters of the sea as in a bottle;
He puts the deeps in storage places.
  

  
 Let all the earth fear the Lord [revere and worship Him];
let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him.
   

   
Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the nation whose God is the Lord,
the people He has chosen as His heritage.
The Lord looks from heaven, He beholds all the sons of men;
From His dwelling place He looks [intently] upon all the inhabitants of the earth--
   

   
He Who fashions the hearts of them all,
Who considers all their doings.
Behold, the Lord's eye is upon those who fear Him [who revere and worship Him with awe],
who wait for Him and hope in His mercy and loving-kindness,
   

   
Our inner selves wait [earnestly] for the Lord;
He is our Help and our Shield.
For in Him does our heart rejoice,
because we have trusted (relied on and been confident) in His holy name.
Let Your mercy and loving-kindness,
O Lord, be upon us, in proportion to our waiting and hoping for You.
~ Psalm 33:6-22 (AMP - emphasis my own)
  
Okay... I don't really have anything to follow that up with... But while you chew on that verse - here is a fantastic song that was recently written by one of our team members:

Give me eyes to see more of who You are

May what I behold still my anxious heart

Take what I have known and break it all apart 

You my God are greater still


No sky contains
No doubt restrains
All You are
 The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know 
and I'm far from close

To all You are
 the greatness of our God

Give me grace to see beyond this moment here
To believe that there is nothing left to fear
That You alone are high above it all

You my God are greater still

And there is nothing that could ever separate us

There is nothing that could ever
Separate us from Your love
No life no death of this I am convinced

You my God are greater still

No words could say or song convey
All You are
 The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know
 and I'm far from close

To all You are
 the greatness of our God
(c) Hillsong Music 2009