Over this past weekend I have been really melancholy, and depressed all because of a stupid thing called:
I know that my being in Oz is the first step of many that God has in store for me - but nevertheless, it is so hard being so vulnerable.
I’m still trying to figure this out… because for SOME reason, I still think I know what I want and what I need more than the Creator of the Universe! Which is bull by the way…
Anyways, my being here in Australia is am amazing opportunity but definitely God’s choice to make sure that I rely on him over anything, or anyone else.
In the car on my way to my performance this morning, I knew that there was something missing. That despair that I was feeling all weekend was not from Christ . So, right then, I was led to this lovely verse:
I am still weak, and vulnerable, but I serve an awesome, loving, and capable God who has me in his hands.
Finances
I am currently living half-way across the world from the security and love that family and friends provide. I am so thankful for this experience, and I know that I am here for a reason, but it is so difficult to give all control over to God, and to trust him with everything… everything!I know that my being in Oz is the first step of many that God has in store for me - but nevertheless, it is so hard being so vulnerable.
Let me ask you a question:
Why do we think we can manage our lives better that God?
Why do we think we can manage our lives better that God?
I’m still trying to figure this out… because for SOME reason, I still think I know what I want and what I need more than the Creator of the Universe! Which is bull by the way…
Anyways, my being here in Australia is am amazing opportunity but definitely God’s choice to make sure that I rely on him over anything, or anyone else.
In the car on my way to my performance this morning, I knew that there was something missing. That despair that I was feeling all weekend was not from Christ . So, right then, I was led to this lovely verse:
I want you woven into a tapestry of love,
in touch with everything there is to know of God.
Then you will have minds confident and at rest,
focused on Christ, God’s great mystery.
All the richest treasures of wisdom and knowledge
are embedded in that mystery!
~ Colossians 2:3-5 (The Message)
The entire time that I was worrying about how I was going to make ends meet, or how I was going to get a job etc. God was not a part of it. I was focusing more on me, myself, and I. Pathetic right?in touch with everything there is to know of God.
Then you will have minds confident and at rest,
focused on Christ, God’s great mystery.
All the richest treasures of wisdom and knowledge
are embedded in that mystery!
~ Colossians 2:3-5 (The Message)
No one who hopes in me ever regrets it.
~ Isaiah 49:23b (The Message)
God is good. God is great. God will never, EVER fail us.~ Isaiah 49:23b (The Message)
I am still weak, and vulnerable, but I serve an awesome, loving, and capable God who has me in his hands.
“I am God, your very own God,
who stirs up the sea and whips up the waves,
named God-of-the-Angel-Armies.
I teach you how to talk, word by word, a
nd personally watch over you.”
~ Isaiah 51:15-16 (The Message)
who stirs up the sea and whips up the waves,
named God-of-the-Angel-Armies.
I teach you how to talk, word by word, a
nd personally watch over you.”
~ Isaiah 51:15-16 (The Message)
Hey Kristina! I've been reading your blog for some time. You write really well!
I know, it's so hard to just let go of everything! But I was at the What if generation tonight, and heard someone say something really good. I just googled it and copied it from the internet, so I didn't have to type it all!
"Baby eagles don’t naturally know how to fly when they are born. They must be taught to fly. Eagles build their nests high on cliffs for safety. They care for and watch over their babies until their feathers have developed. But finally, there comes a day when the mama begins to stir up the nest. Stirring the nest involves removing all the soft nesting material forcing the baby eagle to stand on its own feet in order to strengthen their muscles and talons. Then, she literally pushes the baby out of the nest. As the little baby eaglet falls down toward the ground, he frantically flaps his wings and screams, probably thinking he is headed to certain death on the rocks below. But just before he hits the rocks, the mama will swoop down underneath, pick him up on her wings and take him up again high into the air, dropping him again until he learns to fly. The process strengthens him and teaches him to soar. But I’m sure it doesn’t seem so fun for the baby eagle."
If you are the baby eagle, and God is your eagle mom, this is your story. Sometimes he has to teach us how to trust him. But he will NEVER EVER let us hit the rocks!!
We should have a movie night soon! :)
Elisabet
I really appreciate you taking time to research and comment, Elisabet. Human parents have to take a similar approach to child rearing as eagles do. The main difference is that our experience is stretched over many years, instead of a few weeks.
There are times when kids hate their parents, because the only way to help them learn is to yank the rug out from underneath them, and allow them to crash and burn. This is just as painful an experience for the parents, who want to spare their children as much pain as possible, as it is for the kids. But it's the only way to grow strength, trust and independence.
As eagles gain self-sufficiency, even selecting a mate of their own, they choose to remain within an extended family unit. It doesn't become some perversely interdependent group, but a strong and healthy community in which to thrive.
Our world seems to get smaller and smaller as it becomes easier to maintain communication and contact with family members scattered around the globe. Parents, siblings and the family of God become that encouraging, supportive extended community.
God, eagles, families - - - tough love is the only way to grow. Hope you got a movie night!